And again... once again... this weird feeling... I miss everything i used to dislike... and i even long for all the things i love in sg... my frens... those i love... i miss them so dearly..

emo emo.. haiy.. emo since we went to kim house... and i sing some emo songs... then i was thinking... the frens i were with at that time are gonna follow their own paths.. and what if our paths never meet again???

I feel like goin back to sg already...

weitheng ask me this qn.. 'you rather go uk than staying in sg?'

my answer to him was not true... i was just hiding some feelings behind my answer so that the overwhelming feeling would not show..

i got back my A lvl result.. I can't thank anyone more than those who look after and care for me all the time... my parents...and my grandfather who is far above... i couldn't come this far without them..

once again... i await the time when i can return to sg... once again...

left; 2:43 หลังเที่ยง

Today I have a lot of time to do some reflections.. actually.. everytime on my journey to kumon, i always have alot of time.. but i dunno why so many thoughts just crossed my mind today..

We left the house at 2.40pm as usual.. then my aunt drove to fetch one of my cousin first, then another.. The first cousin is currently studying in my previous sch.. my beloved primary sch! When we arrived, i saw this familiar man, standing in front of the school as always. He looked the same, apart from many more wrinkles that appear on his face.. He used to be the man I talked to everyday after school before my parents came to fetch me. He is still working there, while so many things have happened to my life.. I wonder whether he would still rmb me.....

I thought about my teachers... my friends... the cleaners.. and everyone in that sch i love.. I miss them so dearly.. yet the fact that they might not even remember me hurt me so much... but i guess that's just normal.. lol... they all have taught me so much about life.. and they all have some parts in shaping me into what i am today...

enuf abt the reflections.. now i have dam lots of kumon hw to mark.. i shall go back to this pile of paper T_T

left; 9:55 หลังเที่ยง

I have no confidence... not even a little bit of it.. I don't know what is happening.. because i have not been told... about what is goin on... I'm tired.. I want to stop all this... But i just can't.. I'm too weak to do all these... I just wish the situation will turn around.. and we just get back to what we used to be... but it's hard.. it's so hard... and i'm tired.. i think from now on i just need to be alone... and wait for someone who cares....

...once again, i'm left behind....

....emo time....

left; 12:05 ก่อนเที่ยง

First is the hair... Now is the eyes!!!! OMG!! haha.. i getting uglier and uglier haha.. i look super ugly right haha.. but nvm i will stay confident.. i hope the new specs will help me look more diligent haha..

I finally succumbed to myopia T____T Actually i knew it all along that's why i don't go to the opticists (or whatever u call them) to measure eyesight for the fear for being forced into wearing spectacles which will greatly reduce my level of beauty.. HAHAHA.. but NOW!! yesterday i went back to my hometown and see several uncles and aunties.. one of my uncle owns an optical shop so i went to play at his shop haha.. then he wants to try measuring my eyesight.. so i just.. ok lor.. for fun.. LOL.. AND THEN THIS HAPPENS!! T_T... end up one of my eye is 0 degree but the other... 100...haha.. then my uncle blamed me for waiting until it got this bad.. lol.. so now i need to wear this specs. T_T But at least they are free... hahaha

Hey dun criticise me! You won't be able to remove my confidence! I'm still as pretty as ever! hahaha.. and i'm so not gonna wear this specs other than for reading and using computer... NO WAY.. haha..

left; 10:25 หลังเที่ยง

The photos will come soon... now i'm too lazy to upload them all haha.. let me summarise what has happened during my time in Austria!

Basically we went to several cities in Austria... Vienna >> Melk >> Linz >> Salzburg >> Innsburg >> Graz >> Vienna.... and then back to bkk.. hah.. we had a lot of fun man... DAM FUN i would say lol... sadly we didn't go skiing.. no time cos we only stay in Innsburg for 2 days.. and that's the place where ppl go skiing..yep

The temperature was at around -6 degree... but we didn't feel like it though.. i think we are not used to determine the temperature... so only when we look at the temperature screen which tells us the temperature is at -6, then we feel dam cold haha...

We stay in youth hostels mostly during our trip... their hostel dam cool eh... only 24 euros u can get a room.. (it's even cheaper than my mozart concert ticket!!!) then the room quite big and clean.. with facilities like table tennis's table in the hall... and free internet... WOW.. hahaha

The food... we only got to eat bread hahahaha.. other things are SO EXPENSIVE!!! my goodness.. but their bread is nice... for a first few tries... their chocolate is extremely nice too!! even though i dun normally like chocolate... i always asked for chocolate when i was there haha... lucky i didn't gain any weight cos we walk dam alot.. haha..

I SIMPLY LOVE IT!! AUSTRIA!!!

Quote of the day : No Kangaroos in Austria.

LOL... DARN FUNNY I SAW THAT SOMEWHERE IN AUSTRIA HAHA..

PS. Thank you so much my dearest Yoo, Eli, Kimberly, and Madeline! I received the letters from all of u! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

left; 9:22 หลังเที่ยง

Went to see The Day The Earth Stood Still yesterday with pae and pruet... miss them and all my frens so much.. finally got to meet two of them yay! I forgot to take pic with pruet haha.. cos he came late lah! actually he came early but he called my mum T_T then he thought he called wrong number... aiyo.. i gave him my number already!! T_T... anyway... pae looks pretty much the same.. and she said i look the same too... but slimmer!! hahaha.. of cos la i lost 4 kg u noe!! haha...

The movie was good.. i like it... but i like twilight better... i think.. haha..

Hey Jasmine i already updated hor.. haha.. abit short but sorry.. will update again soon okay haha..

And congrats... finally someone can come online again XD

....To be continued....

left; 7:55 หลังเที่ยง

Haha I have a real story to tell u all today... It's a simple story but it touches me so deeply! Let me tell u the story...

While my aunt was driving one day, with her husband (or my uncle) sitting beside her, she got caught by the police. It's because she was not very accustomed to the place since it was her first time there. So she didn't really know the rules and where to go.. When the police caught her she asked 'What did I do?' The police then raised his voice and said 'YOU DROVE IN THE WRONG LANE.. IF YOU WANT TO TURN LEFT YOU CANNOT DRIVE IN THIS LANE!' My aunt was super angry because she really didn't know.. But before she scolded him, there was a voice from the seat beside her...

'YOU CANNOT SPEAK LIKE THIS TO MY DEAR WIFE!!!'

Wah... hahaha.. I felt so touched when i heard the story.. hahahaha.. and it's not like they just got married yesterday.. it's been.... 11 years i think.. i dun really know when they got married haha... And my uncle still loves my aunt deeply haha... or at least he sounds so by saying 'dear wife'.. LOL... oh by the way my uncle was from Denmark... Wah i hope i can find such guy also.. who will always protect me HAHA.. wah.. ok i shall get married to a Dennish.. LOL.. JUST JOKING!

....End of Story....

left; 8:48 หลังเที่ยง

Hey I changed my blog's setting so now all of you can enjoy reading from the very first post i have haha...Special thanks to Joanna who gives me this wonderful idea^^ hahahahaha...

Today my father left home for work... my mother left home for some errands.. my aunti also left home on an errand... my cousins left home for school/college... So I'm left home with my grandmother and Ginny, my 3 year-old cousin...

It all started when i came down after my morning msn chat and found my grandmother sitting alone in the kitchen, in her hand was a motar and pestle. She was pounding many spices in order to make a chili paste... which you can put it many many different thai food.. So I went there to help her.. Sadly I forgot to take photo! haha.. I made until the chili paste become very nice you know.. haha.. and along the way, my grandmother taught me alot of things.. how to make paste.. how to cook certain stuff.. and then she started telling me stories about her life.. It's so interesting that i would want to compound it and make into a book^^ And when i finished the paste, it becomes so green that i can imagine cooking it with green curry.. haha.. ok i'm gonna continue learning other things from her..

After I finish pounding the paste, I was cryin like mad haha.. cos chili went into my eyes and it's so 'spicy'.. lol.. but it was a memorable experience.. not that I never do it before.. but rather because listening to my grandmother gave me the strange sense of peace.. the feeling which i used to long for when I was in Singapore...

PS. Thanks brendan for the vocab of 'motar and pestle'! haha

left; 3:23 หลังเที่ยง

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!! haha.. today is Thailand father's day... so i made my father this card! yesterday i did and re-did 3 cards haha.. but still so ugly T_T This is how my 4th card look like... but still quite ugly leh T_T but since i finished this card at 1 am and i was very sleepy so i just leave it as it is haha.. and as expected.. my father was like...'card? no present?' HAHAHA.. aiyo... limited budget HAHA

And since it's father's day... he started ordering me around since i woke up.. lol...wash dish.. cut grass.. clean the table.. bla bla bla... but the most tiring one is cut grass... which.. luckily.. got alot of ppl to help haha.. my father, mother, 4 of my cousins and me! haha.. here are the pics.. really fun huh? hahaha.. i suddenly feel that our small garden suddenly become so gigantic.. lol..



haha this is when we finished cutting..wah.. so many bags of grass!!



my mother helps me water the garden haha..



continue to cut grass... and sweep the floor.. while m resting.. HAHA.. hey i hav done my job! lol..



are they helping or playing? lol



okay.. the kids are tired.. HAHA..

I was super tired too lah.. so tired.. but so fun haha.. it's such a good way of 'family gathering'.. lol....

will blog again when i feel like it^^

left; 10:35 หลังเที่ยง

.... why the thais are still quarelling? I really hope it will resolves soon.. I want peace...

Did you look at the moon last night? If u didn't u really miss sth worth looking... this phenomenon will only happen in the next 250 years! The left eye is the jupiter.. the right? i'm not so sure haha.. is it mercury? i dunno haha.. So cool.. the moon is smiling at us.. it made me feel so happy, looking at the smiling moon, hoping that those i love would be looking at the same moon at the same time as i was last night^^

Let the picture shows you how cute the moon was..



ps. okay i was wrong haha.. the right was the Jupiter.. the left was Venus.. yay! ^^

left; 11:38 ก่อนเที่ยง

คิดถึงทุกคนเลย T_T คิดถึงจิงๆ น้า หวังว่าจามีคนได้มาอ่านเด้อ อ่านแล้วไม่เม้นไม่เป็นไรจ้า 55 ก็ขอโทดนะเรามีรูปนี้รูปเดียวอ่ะ รูปอื่นเอสมันอออุ๊บอิ๊บ 55 แต่รักทุกคนเท่ากันหมดน้า

ชอบรูปนี้มามาเลยอ่า น่ารักทุกคนเลยเน้อๆ 55




went out with my old friends yesterday... man.. all the memories and flashbacks made me feel emo... I miss them all deeply..

Look at the pic.. we are simply CUTE right.. hahahaha

Looking forward to our next outings...

This is the only pic with me haha.. the rest dun be angry ah =P

left; 6:32 หลังเที่ยง

Today I woke up with a piece of music in my head - Chopin Nocturne in B flat major opus 9 no.2. It's such a sweet song and I love it. So I quickly had my breakfast and played it on the piano. Although not as nice, but ok lah hor. Haha. After that I watched this japanese drama, which i dunno the english name. But the thai name can be translated as 'beautiful music with beautiful love'. It's like the best jap drama i've ever seen. It's about a guy who has a dream. He wants to be a professional orchestra conductor. While the girl wants to be a professional pianist. WAH... Throughout the whole show I enjoyed every single classical piece they performed... or listened..

And the girl performed the Mozart song! 12 variations ttls. WAH... dam nice.. so i went to the piano once again.. HAHA.. WAH.. SO NICE.. I think my neighbours today have enought of classical music.. haha.. i also played Chopin Walz in C minor Opus 64 No.2.. WAH.. nice song.. the song which Jay Chou kinda copy and reproduce in his famous movie 'the secret' Hah... love it..

And i listened to 3 classical cds.. wah.. i wished i could play them all.

Let me post the nocturne song here. I'm really into it right now^^

left; 9:35 หลังเที่ยง

Okay this one look better haha.. But although i still dun like the hair.. i still think any hairstyle would complement my pretty face.. WAHAHAHA.. haha.. so not bad lah hor! until i cut again! lol

left; 10:25 หลังเที่ยง

Went to dye my hair.. HAHA.. and i look... hmm... weird.. HAHAHAHA.. ok let the picture show u how weird it looks....

left; 9:06 หลังเที่ยง

I have so much time to spare now.. given that m down with flu.. most of the time i spend is on my bed, thinking and reflecting about myself, my past, and my future.

Should I go to uk? Last night I received this letter from Durham university, informing me that i'm given a conditional place in their university and what i should do if i were to confirm the acceptance. The feeling of studying in uk overwhelmed me like it never used to before. It feels like studying in uk is within my reach after all. Yet, shall I go? Shall I leave my own comfort of home, and even singapore, to go to this foreign land far away?

Stay in sg has its advantage. But goin uk had always been my dream.. until recently.. I'm confused.. I don't know what is best for me.. or what should i do...

Shall i leave this to fate... so that i don't need to crack my head over what is going to happen anyway... like what the christians always believe...

.. I seriously have no idea...

left; 8:55 หลังเที่ยง

Went to vivo city to watch Quantum of Solace today... i thought it was okay though.. quite... a good action movie... we took photo! Shall I post it here? hahaha... no i shall not... later someone kill me... XD

Anyway, the outing was... memorable... i wouldn't forget at all... we bought the tickets... we were supposed to watch at 1425... we go and buy 1200 one... LOL... omg i though i had to lose my hard earned 7.50 dollars T_T.. luckily the guy was kind enough to give us new tickets with the correct timing.. yay!!

I hope today has 48 hours.. but then... time passes by so fast.. T_T

We ate at Marche.... wow... first time in such luxurious restaurant.. lol.. the price was very luxurious as well.. haha..

I won't forget what has happened today^^

left; 9:21 หลังเที่ยง

Just did econs... I don't know what to say... It's simple... Yet it's hard.. It's do-able.. Yet I have no confidence... I don't know what to say... Spotted completely wrongly.. haiy... sian.. I don't know whether i will get A... I just pray that I will.. I need this A badly.. If not no one gonna take me in... T_T

...Mixed feelings...

left; 5:42 หลังเที่ยง

Oh my goodness...........

left; 6:30 หลังเที่ยง

I promised myself not to blog anymore. But I'm so moved by the song that I have to share it with you. Hah.. I'm lovin this song. And I'm sure many people love it too. Can't believe that the irritating guy actually have good music sense...... Anyway.... Enjoy...

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You lyrics

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find



Song lyrics  Fall For You lyrics

left; 12:43 หลังเที่ยง

A level is coming so soon... in 42-day time... I think I'm not gonna blog anymore.. I may come online sometimes, but not so regular anymore.. so yah.. all the best everyone!

Despite having so many exams which really stressed me out, I still feel so happy=) My life is just so perfect.. All thanks to you=) I'm so grateful for having you by my side^^

JIAYOU FOR A LEVEL!! XD

left; 6:22 หลังเที่ยง

We somehow decided to go to Jurong Bird Park instead of the zoo.. haha.. it was so fun!!! I LOVE ALL THE LITTLE BIRDS! THey are super CUTE! haha

We really had alot of fun... yoo was so funny trying to talk to the parrots and got ignored by them.. HAHA.. oh and i was laughing at her when she got bitten by this small little bird when we try to feed them.. but later on i got bitten by a gigantic ostrich.. LOL... i was just trying to touch his head.. haha.. my middle finger is still super red now.. ouch! haha

Here are some photos!

left; 10:11 หลังเที่ยง

Now m so free... everyday also free.. haha.. cos prelims is over.. and i dun intend to start studying for A level anytime before next week.. So now my daily routine is.. wake up.. eat.. online... eat.. online... nap... eat... online.. sleep.. wake up.. haha.. It's quite a thing to do.. I mean I feel so good not having to study anymore.. but at the same time, I don't know what should I do to make my life more meaningful.. Is this the life I wanted after all? Well, maybe not.. I hope I didn't come home late yesterday and i didn't piss my mum and so she will allow me to go out with the class today.. lol... but ok la i need to behave so that i can go to the zoo on sunday... if not that 'grandma' will kill me.. lol..

But I just enjoy this break.. although sometimes I may feel like i've been slacking too much.. haha.. but ok la.. slack hard then i will feel more guilty then I can study harder for my As.. HAHA

Last night has an emo talk with ivan and bren before carrot and mk joined in.. I really wonder whether I will be the one who miss all of you or I will be the one whom u all missed... I hope it's both ways.. hah.. at least that makes me feel.....loved...

I'm in a dilemma. I hope A level will fly past. But at the same time, I want to treasure the time when we are together to the fullest. You are so important to me. Remember that ok^^

Shall go back to my fbXD

left; 12:24 หลังเที่ยง

Finally.. Prelims is over.. but i wouldn't say i did well.. In fact i did so badly.. I think if m lucky, my maths is a B.. econs is a B... the rest... S or U? lol i hav no idea.. die die... prelims.. arrgghhhh... feel so dumb after each paper.. although everyone said they were tough.. but i know i did worse than them... for chem i can barely finish half of the paper T_T

Good thing is that it's over.. and now i have my weekend to celebrate.. going to go to the zoo with my SWEETIE!! haha.. on sunday.. yay! Really looking forward to it.. haha

After that.. It's all down to mug again.. mug for A level... I can't feel so loser anymore... I must do well no matter what...

left; 5:28 หลังเที่ยง

It was 3 nights ago... Or was it 4 nights ago? I started dreaming about so many random ppl... lol.. And they were all very tiring dreams.. haha.. expecially the dream i just had just now before i woke up.. anyway.. I found them all quite interesting because they were so random.. haha.. Anyway here they are.. I don't know whether you all will enjoy them but i just feel like posting them haha..

The first night.. I dreamt about zhili... lol.. we were taking random photos in a very ulu place.. haha.. ok that dream was short.. and very random..

The next night... I dreamt of mew.. We were quarrelling.. and quarrelling... and quarrelling... over some childish stuff (which i can't recall)... and then i woke up... crying.. LOL

ok next night... oh wait.. not next night.. this one was when I was napping in the afternoon.. haha.. I dreamt of my mum.. and my goldfish!! Cos i was so worried about my sick goldfish before I went to nap I think.. Then I dream of them.. in this very large aquarium.. And suddenly... the baby fish pop out from my goldfish!! HAHA.. one by one until the aquarium was filled with baby fish... haha.. but in the dream it was so realistic la.. hahaha.. i was so happy cos my goldfish finally mate!! haha

ok next night... I dreamt of yoo and kp... we went to the zoo.. haha.. then suddenly yoo disappear to dunno where.. then kp and I went to eat.. and eat... and then i can't rmb what happened next.. haha..

The next night.. which was last night... and since i just woke up it's still very fresh in my mind.. haha.. It was indeed a very long dream... I dreamt of my daddy, mummy, grandma, and 3 of my cousins.. We went on a holiday together... in a haunted house.. LOL.. omg so scary the whole dream we kept on running away from some weird sound haha.. and then everything was a blur.... and suddenly mew and carrot appeared.. haha.. ok we were playing hide and seek... on the SAS bridge... LOL.. and the way we hid was so hilarious.. haha.. carrot and I supposed to hide while mew supposed to find us.. haha.. the dream was funny but very tiring again cos we kept running... and then I woke up... sweat all over.. ok it wasn't morning yet.. so I felt asleep again... As soon as i closed my eyes, a scene in my secondary school in Thailand appeared.. I was with yoo... hiding.. from i dunno wad.. haha.. then mrs lee wanted everyone to go for assembly.. so we went down... and we met elden... walking randomly as if he was losing his direction.. we didn't help him though.. we were running (again!) to the assembly area... past evan.. to our s01 row.. ok i dreamt of carrot again... and i met him.. then i told him i dreamt of him and mew last night... HAHAHA.. ok it wasn't last night.. it's the same night actually.. but previous dream.. haha.. ok then i met steve.. I talked to steve.. but he dao me(wad de??!!?!)... and i met yujun.. then dunno why we were running again from fire... then from monster.. then i woke up... sweating like pig..

haha ok that's all.. haha.. this post is so long... and full of rubbish.. haha.. anyway m really looking forward to my next dream.. i dunno what kind of weird stuff will come up... LOL

anyway.. happy belated birthday to WEITHENG!

left; 10:36 ก่อนเที่ยง

I'm so depressed today.. Because my goldfish is sick T_T oh no... it's sick... For the first time in my life, I really feel like I'm losing part of my family T_T haha.. ok mayb not that bad.. But... T_T

One of my goldfish got veins all over his tail... It's a bad sign.. It's a sign that he can't adjust properly to the surrounding.. mayb due to the change in temperature of the water without time for him to adjust.. arrghhh.. oh no.. remedy? Put alot of salt.. haha.. ok i already put like 1 teaspoon of salt... but then i dun want to buy those chemical.. although it might be more effective in the short run.. but i don't trust those chemicals... it may harm my beloved goldfish in the long run T_T

Oh no... The other goldfish is still fine.. I hope the sick one will recover real soon=( So poor thing...T_T

Please pray hard for my goldfish... They have only been with me for 6 months!!! T_T

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left; 5:55 หลังเที่ยง

HAHA... Feel like posting this.. I was thinking of this ad just now.. cos i suddenly feel so fat HAHA.. ok it was one of the most memorable ads from thailand.. lol.. hope it will somehow 'destress' all of you somehow XD

To the girls... How many of you do that? Admit it!! HAHAHA

left; 6:32 หลังเที่ยง

To think that prelims is so near, yet I'm still at the com every single night T_T The thought of it makes me stressed.. I'm stressed until I can't control myself sometimes.. Sometimes I laugh without reasons.. Sometimes I just feel so emo and angry with those who say something against my wish.. I know.. I'm not a very good friend at this point in time.. But please pardon me ok.. Just this once.. It will be over.. At least I hope it will...

...It's hard to be me...

left; 11:25 ก่อนเที่ยง

I know it's abit late... actually it's very late to blog about this.. haha.. But just now i was listening to 'welcome to my life' song by simple plan... and it brought back so much memory... The time during bridging course... the quarrel i had with my best fren... how we used to spend time tgt at VH.. how I went up to her room every morning and waited for her to come down for breakfast together... yok ja if you are reading this.. I'm missing you!!

The song was one of her favourite at that point in time.. we always listened to this song during the bus journey to Ngee Ann Polytechnic... where our class was held... I miss you! and I miss yoo! and I miss everyone who shared the same memory T_T

There are so many people who have left 'footprint' in my heart... All my friends have indeed impacted me in one way or another.. I want to say that I love you all so much.. and I will treasure u all forever.. really.. Everyone.. Every single one of you.. I will never forget u all T_T

Emo mode again... all simple plan's fault T_T

left; 10:28 หลังเที่ยง

Twinkle Twinkle little STAR or "Ah! vous dirai je maman" 12 variations by Mozart.. Performed by George Li..

Wah.. I love this man.. Love it.. and he is so young already plays so well! haha.. I'm working on it.. The first variation is down.. HAHAHAHA.. left 11 more T_T

Enjoy!=)

left; 11:00 หลังเที่ยง

People are avoiding me.. Some say nothing when they see me.. Some totally pretend they didn't c me.. as if I'm part of the air T_T What have I done? At least tell me what wrong I have done to you..

Rumours have been going on for a while.. Both good and bad.. what have you heard about me? Shouldn't you be asking me what the truth is? Rather than blindly believing whatever comes to you ears?

I feel sad. I feed depressed. I feel ignored. One by one they ignored me. Now, even my good friend didn't want to look into my eyes when we talk. Just what have I done?

Is it purely my imagination? Is it because I'm stressed? Is it because I'm too sensitive? Maybe... But still.. there are traces of evidence everywhere I go...

I'm stressed. I'm tired. Yet my friends are moving faraway at the time when I need them most. This hole in my heart is widening.. I desperate for friends... for love.. anyone please help me fill in this huge emptiness within me..

Bdw..

Happy Birthday to Elisabeth Angelina! =)

left; 6:45 หลังเที่ยง

Yay we are so pretty! XD

oh tell u a story haha.. during the slow dance we try to dance together HAHA.. try la try.. then we keep walking around see in case got 2 girls dance tgt then we wont b so out haha.. but wah the whole floor all couples!! haha..(abit sad ah how come no one ask me!! hahahaha jk) then we saw this 2 girls dancing so we went to join them for like.. 5 secs? haha.. talk to them for a while.. but i really think they are lesbian eh.. the way they talk and hold each other.. haha.. but we are NOT ok.. we are NOT!

BOSITH!! you still look as tall and as fat as ever!! haha.. m so bad.. but this guy ah said m fat.. m not fat lo.. rite??? RITE!!! haha..

this is why i kinda like asean dance la.. gotto see and talk to so many old frens.. I love you all ah! keep in touch!

left; 11:50 หลังเที่ยง

ASEAN DANCE 2008... finally.. finally... i will see you all tomorrow XD...

Today was tiring.. not so much in the morning.. but after the school was over.. went to study in the library.. 'Physics is fun!' Ms ong always say that.. haha.. i'm trying ms ong.. m trying to feel it! haha.. After that went to this chem remedial.. feel so good after revising those inorganic topics.. i love it more than organic chem to be honest...

In the morning was pure slacking.. ME was fun today XD.. cos we had it in the starbucks.. so got piano yay! haha.. but i realised my skill has dropped drastically.. T_T.. ok i need prac.. need a lot of practice.. but after A level.. i will show the world how good a pianist i can be.. muahahaha..

the 'happy birthday to me' song stuck in my head since ME lesson.. lol.. love the song man but dunno how to play.. everytime i listen to it, i will feel that the world is not so gloomy after all.. hahah

now trying to study phy.. but failed terribly.. so here i am..

oh and frens.. i have sth to say.. m not a lesbian T_T

nono.. m not one... nono.. not in this life..

this is quite a random post..

i dunno wad to post already... but still feel like typing...

my speed typing test's result on facebook is 84 WPM T_T... the winner goes to this 'fingers and memories' guy with 89 WPM T_T.. i wanna win him badly.. you wait and c.... haha..

ok i shall end here...

once again..

c u at FULLERTON tmr XD

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Twilight Twilight... I want to go there badly.. It's free! and it's FULLERTON!!! But there are too many signs that I won't be able to go there.. ok i will just keep praying hard.. haha

Most of my friends know how strict my mother is.. Can't go out after 7pm.. can't stay over at other places.. can't.. can't.. CANT.. ok.. so in order to go to ASEAN dance I need to have a friend to accompany me home T_T This sounds retarded for a 18 year-old girl... I always hate this fact.. I think the fact that I have been pampered so much is making me even more childish and immature.. T_T ok.. back to ASEAN dance.. so i asked yoo to take taxi wif me back home early.. around 10 plus we need to leave.. and now she said she has sore eye.. so dunno whether can go.. argghh.. if she can't go who will sacrifice like her? no one.. T_T so I have nobody to accompany me home.. so my mother will be upset.. so she won't let me go.. oh no she won't let me go..

Oh no.. T_T

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The first time I had feelings for someone.. it was quite sometime ago, yet the memory of him is crystal clear. Not to say that I still have feelings for him, but recently he kept popping up in my mind.

We are both travellers.. and we are not destined to be together.. His father is an ambassador, so after a few weeks of relationship, he left me for Indonesia. But we made a promise.. A very important promise.. Sadly, I was the one who broke it..

Three years later, I broke my promise and came to Singapore. I didn't wait for him at the very same place where we used to be. Yet, he was so sweet.. so sweet that he made me regret even more; he visited me. He and his mum travelled all the way to Victoria Hall to visit me. I didn't tell him this, but I was indeed very touched by what he has done..

Now he is pursuing his future in the UK. He has moved on. I, too, have moved on and only concentrate on making my dreams come true. But during the process, I often feel depressed. I'm lonely. I'm yearning for love. But I'm not desperate. I just want someone by my side... Someone who really cares...

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Ok i shall warn the guys.. If you come across my blog and see this entry, I advice you not to read it because m gonna blog about the girl thing.. haha..but if you dun mind then... haha

It started yesterday.. My stomach was so dam painful since it was the first day. Today is the second day but the pain is more excruciating than before.. oh no! and normally for days like this, I can't take any dairy products as all or the pain will just get much worse. Very fortunate indeed, I somehow forgot about this fact. So today, I saw Vishnu ate yoghurt after his lunch.. WOW I ALSO WANT! haha.. Eli wanted it too so we both eat.. And of cos, now m paying the price.. T_T Kimberly and Yoo said I look very very pale. Oh no, I feel as if m giving birth already haha.. Super painfulT_T oh no.. The panadol i took from jesslyn obviously didn't work at all T_T oh no! I feel like m dying T_T

Ok a bit of exaggeration here and there haha.. But look m in pain!!! So you better treat me well for the next few days.. haha.. ok a bit no link haha..

Why am i blogging abt this? haha... I also don't know.. my stomach is screaming for help right now.. OUCH T_______T

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I finally change my blog.. haha.. I have moved from multiply to blogger.. with the help of weitheng and munkidd.. Thank you ya! haha.. The reason for changing??

"ploy!! ADD YOU CBOX!!"

haha.. now here you are.. I got myself a cbox.. so u better tag!!! haha

Ok now i have nothing to say.. will update you later=) Still got a lot to learn.. blogger is so different from multiply!!

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haha! first post!

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